P.S.

Oh yeah and i still love him

Thoughts...

friends.. are they really who they claim to be.. should certain actions deter u away from certain friendships.. should u have to put up walls with certain friends?? I never thought thats how friendships should be handled but.. in the past weeks a lot has happend.. and im looking at things different.. respect.. and how people view eachother and where do you let certain people GO.. Maybe people are there for seasons and they leave... Im not going to stress about it but should i have to censor myself when im around certain people? thats irritating and uncalled for. at the end of the day i know who i am. I have a BIG MOUTH, not purposely my intentions with people are never negative...even when you cross me and EFF me over im still looking for the greater good out of the situation... I will give someone my last dollar and try to make a sour situation the best one in your life... ill listen to all your problems and give you positive feedback, ill be down to walk around in the middle of the night just because itll make YOU feel better. Id stand up for my friend and not judge them... I appreciate the best and the worse of them because that makes them. Id never choose a boy over you over nonsense unless it is my husband, ill disagree with my friends but know at the end of the convo it was spoken out of love..I wont talk to my girls man or their ex, ill respect ur feelings... Im not perfect not trying to be im just here to be me and follow through on my dreams and MY life... but right now im not feeling it with some people...It comes down to that good ol Process of Elimination...

I wont be the weakest link.. But i can say GOODBYE...

So yesterday was Mothers Day and it was a really good day for me.. Me and my cousin went to church together and i saw a bunch of people i havent seen in forever! and my twinnnnnn KENDERICK.. lol we have the same BDAY.. and i found out that they wanted me to judge he cotillion on FRIDAY but i was M.I.A... damn man that would of been super fun lol But everything happens for a reason.. Uhm then we went with my family to y aunts house and ate there well me and tiasia slept because the night before we pulled an allnighter! it was crazy! but i enjoyed myself and this summer looks like its going to be TONS OF FUN.. so far roadtrip to GA in AUG but ANIKOLES bday is coming up this month and shes gonna be 21!!! AHHH so thats gonna be super funn clubbn nd nice hotel? yes that sounds amazing lol. Uhm... i am pretty content right now.. im saying focused on positive things and im taking ME into consideration for once and it feels GOOD... And hopefully this summer i can take a visit to AZ i miss the weather and my ULTIMATE BRENNA i miss her a TONZ and my beezy ROMINA and of course MONAAAA lol... i speak to her almost everyday though so shes doing good.
But church was really on point yesterday.. the sermon was well appreciated =) lol uhm this saturday is the "walk for Jesus" and me and my cuz are goin to walk it im trying to get adara to do it lmao but when i brought the idea up she laughed lol im like no CHIK im so Serious lol... and thats pretty much it... well a sum of it<3

It.

Confuseddddddd...or am I? i dont know what the hell is running through my mind.. i never really have a thought out plan which can sometimes be FUn but then NO.. Im about to be 20 years old in less than 5 months .. Get it together seriously.. priorities need to be fixed and everything cause its crazy and ridiculous... My mind is ..a circus.. sometimes its scary .. Im never Sane..
Life is crazy tho so i guess i was made correctly.. Is it really never too early or too late? what is this all about... Im lost Confused and Unsure... Im the chick that needs reassurance often.. not in just words.. but actions as well!
WHERES HOWARD HELP ME???? LMAO.. im laughing and fighting back tears all in one...
I think AZ is calling me.. Its about that time