yeah i have no complaints just the distance thing but then that should make us want eachother more and appreciate eachother when we see eachother right? or does that make him wander?

THis was the response...


marv154 (9:14:59 PM): He's a niggaaa kiera...he gon b wounderin
KaiSeLBa 07 (9:15:10 PM): lol u can look but touch?
marv154 (9:15:19 PM): Watchu think he gon b doin up der?
marv154 (9:15:32 PM): Lookn at asssss an not touchin it?
marv154 (9:15:37 PM): Smh
KaiSeLBa 07 (9:15:42 PM): working and takin care of his daughter but also go to the clubs with his homies and stuff like i kick it with my girls
KaiSeLBa 07 (9:15:44 PM): yeah
KaiSeLBa 07 (9:16:40 PM): YOU LOOK BUT DONT TOUCH
Auto Response from marv154 (9:16:41 PM): Not n da moodSame shit different day
KaiSeLBa 07 (9:16:49 PM): u and adara are distant from eachother
marv154 (9:17:20 PM): Yea tru..but I wudnt hurt adara lik d
marv154 (9:17:29 PM): Dat*
KaiSeLBa 07 (9:18:06 PM): lol and he wouldnt either..this is our last chance
KaiSeLBa 07 (9:18:19 PM): really because now we are adults and we no right from wrong
KaiSeLBa 07 (9:18:22 PM): no more excuses
marv154 (9:18:32 PM): But from wa I hear ur mans has a past of cheatin
marv154 (9:18:40 PM): Am I ryt?
KaiSeLBa 07 (9:19:03 PM): yeah but we were young...and i cheated on him ONCE
Auto Response from marv154 (9:19:04 PM): Not n da moodSame shit different day
KaiSeLBa 07 (9:19:04 PM): ONCE
marv154 (9:20:23 PM): Smh c u prolly made him da way he is
marv154 (9:20:34 PM): U cheated on him first?
KaiSeLBa 07 (9:20:42 PM): lmao noo i cheated on him after he cheated on me a million times
KaiSeLBa 07 (9:20:44 PM): no
KaiSeLBa 07 (9:20:46 PM): not at all
marv154 (9:22:19 PM): Mhmm I seee
KaiSeLBa 07 (9:22:47 PM): soo... tit for tat and now FRESH START??
Auto Response from marv154 (9:22:48 PM): Not n da moodSame shit different day
marv154 (9:23:14 PM): If das wat u wanna do
marv154 (9:23:30 PM): I hope da best 4 u
KaiSeLBa 07 (9:24:11 PM): aww thanks =)

Im so much to manage....

Whats it really about?

Sitting here listening to Ashanti...The way that I love you... and im jamming out to jango.com...

The past tense is in full effect. Ive changed but i feel as though for the better..for some others

IDK... Im a little softer than usual especially when it comes to accepting things...with everything

and everyone...Put the gears in reverse or forward? i dont want the old days back i want better

days ahead of me... Thats it.. And it seems like im going to make them happen..ALL ON ME..

{Just me} What makes someone an OFFICIAL GIRL? What happens when you get what you've

asked for? i bet you never really thought about what came with those WISHES

Just like an ad For TYLENOL{sideeffects..}...

I can be something out of this world man...............<3 all i need is my Girls{they are always there}

Eventually...

So today was a really GREAT day for me... I spoke to all of my girls and everyone is doing good and that makes me happy ... And school is over in 3 weeks so im excited about that. I mean last time everyone was together we really didnt have a chance to catch up on everything and what everyone is going through. And this weekend we had a chance to do that and everything just fell back into place like it should be. These girls are like my sisters...Scratch like out they are...you mess with one of them then you are definitely messing with me. We have no boundaries with eachother but then again we do respect eachother. This Friday is DRIZZY concert thingy so we are def excited about that. And i finally changed my name on facebook to Kiera GABBYUNION Ables lmao.. thanks to TREV he gave me the strength to push through with that lol I mean ash and adara think i took it a lil too far but i mean damn i was feelin myself and so was OTHERS lol.. iv been hearing gabby more than KIERA so i mean i gotta do it Adara said that i can be BRIELLE UNION lmao werd.. COMICAL man... Johnathan and i are good...i know yesterday i was like blah but i mean things can change in seconds let alone a day. I spoke to him last night and he made me feel all better about us being together I trust him and i dont think hes playing games. I think he still has a lot to learn and so do i but id rather do it with him by my side then DOLO.. I mean dont get me wrong if i had to do it by myself i could but id rather not. I love him and i want to spend the rest of my life with him. I heart him. And his daughter is so adorable she is the cutest thing and she is a spitting image of her daddy. Uhm i get the question a lot on how i feel about that. Uhm i dont have a certain way towards it. If me and johnathan continue and become more serious than just talk and we eventually move in together and married then i will accept Jianna as family or asone of my own. She does have a mother though and i would never try and step on her mothers toes. But Johnathan is apart of me and Jianna is a piece of him so it would be indecent to not accept her.. Plus shes a baby I LOVE KIDS lol {not the ghetto ignant ones tho lol} But right now i gotta focus on him plus i havnt even met her yet and its probably going to be a while anyway so when that day comes itll come and ill be ready. And earlier this year he said that he hoped he and i got closer this year and i believe that we have got closer... Its been rough i dont want to get carried away but its a relationship and i do cherish it. I love him and adore him... Its funny because when i was visiting him last week i found out that he likes to write and his favorite subject is english well one of them...and i think science.. I dont do Science but I LOVE ENGLISH and i thought it was cool caus that just reminded me that i do not know everything about him. and this will be enjoyable getting to know him more...i dont ever wanna know him like a book ... but i feel like we are intuned with eachother..idk if that makes any sense but i know what im talking about. And one of his favorite movies is SHOTTAS and sharmelle knows tht movie shes like thats every carribbean persons fav movie.. lol Crazy right? yeah i know.. But im not rushing anything i like the pace that this is going im happy i just want to keep US happy because a relationship consist of two people and two peoples feelings and ideas thoughts etc... Im not giving up on it too lightly...Im in love and im not apologetic for it...

Simplicity...

So a lot has happened.. Uhm i am feeling myself a little more and more everyday lol and its not a bad thing...im not cocky or anything like that but im just exuberanting with LIFE lol yeah i made that word up! This weekend i hung out with my girls and it was bueno as always!im gonna start running more so my body can be super fit for summer wear and virinia beach wear and myrtle beach with my girls and cuzzo and her man...Uhm im not single i go back out with Johnathan but it doesnt feel like im in a relationship... idk its weird i love him and when we first started going back out like a week ago i was willing to work out whatever we had to work out but he doesntfeel the same way.If he didnt have me in his life it would not make a difference at all. And i finally realized that today and it hurt but its life. But i learned that i have the best friends inthe world who love and need me...its just a good feeling sometimes when your boyfriend feels the same way about you the way you do him. I honestly believe that i love and 'need' him more than he needs and loves me. Uhm and i know it may seem like...ok why are you with him? BEcause i truly love him but this isnt how i want a relationship to be. I needattention from my partner ad i get absolutely none from him. and im gonna stop hitting him up because im pestering him and becoming a nuissance and I KIERA ABLES am not that girl. I have completely runout of ideas. I cnt keep someone interested if hes not willing to put in effort...BUt its cool because its always been like this i think its because i dated mona and i was her everything i got everything handed to me and i never had to ask her to call me or give me semi attention i feel like im in 3rd wrld country starving..But for his love and attention. As long as i know that i am and have given it my all and then some then i will have no regrets. I have none so far but i can only help but wonder why he wants to be with me...if he is going to still act as though he doesnt hve someone...Crazy i think he would put MORE effort into a new FEmale...But anyway i just cant wait for school to start and hurry up and get my degree an start my career... i wanna start looking into buying a CONDOMINIUM... but idk where i think imight move to Delaware or somethng or somewhere in NJ idk but im definitely going to start looking on the market NOW... I still have my goals i want to reach ! ugh the marriage by 25...EHHH its looking shakii but i mean aslong as im doing what i want and happy that will be good enough for me. I also spent the week wth my COUSIN and her MAN AND i had tons of FUN me and her are like freakin TWINS.. ILOVE THAT GIRL! but anyway thats pretty much it... this is a crazy Ride and im loving every minute of it I love my girls Adara Anik Brandy Sha And TIASIA and i love my boyfriend JOhnathan...I dont like him right now tho but as long as i love him and he loves me we still have a connection...I Know that this chance im gonna give it a lot more than 6 years ago because i am older and i have grown as a woman and i knw more and i have experienced many things in these past 6 years...But i dont think hes willing and ready for my Love.. and its crazii CUZ IM AMAZING =)

DRAINED =(

im really and truely drained i feel like im gonna pass out any day now.. im trying so hard to be strong and just do what i got to do but everything is just crashing in on my emotions and im hanging on a thin ass thread. Im currently at my cousins house and im just really not feeling it. I have a headache my eyes keep welling up with tears and im hot and im listening to some sappy love songz..i like them tho, they are from my jango.com and im listening to corrine bailey rae. i love her music it is amazing and all that stuff. my cousin and her hubby went to the movies, i tried to do a double date but you know if johnathan isnt down with it then it doesnt go down. He has not changed at all. the only thing that is different is that i have a title.. GIRLFRIEND.. i get so caught up easily. ijust wish my feelings would be on my side for once.

TBC... lol in the ROC

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