Hola Mami...

Hey you guys =), so a lot has happened lol uhm last week i fainted and hit the back of my head on the edge of the couch on the way down and it was absolutely crazy. and Shas mom had to call the ambulance and i was taken to the hospital! craziness i know right, but they never really found out what was wrong with me scary...yeah i know.Then my mom and my cousin we went to ihop to eat then movies and i spent the day with my mommy who i love dearly =) shes my everything. Then i went to take a nap and i had a voicemail..guess from who?!?!? well yeah i dont think i need to say a name at this point and time in my blogging life because you guys should already know lol. And i was told that he wanted to take me out to dinner and discuss some things and just hang out so i accepted why not ya kno? so we went out to eat and we chit chat a little bit but it was awkward he was so quiet and not much was being sad from his end. And i spoke to him yesterday and now i know why. I feel like a jack ass in some type of sense because i have been selfish these pass couple of months and im not looking at the big picture. Im not taking full blame but i mean i definitely have not put myself thoroughly in his shoes and i dont think that i could ever understand what he is going through. And i try everyday to empathize with him. And it just needs to come natural and not be fake about it. i cant act like i know everything and that theres nothing. Like this is just on a friendship level you know? I need to be more flexible and understanding and do more listening than talking before i get the full out story. But thats that. And i met this girl...through Adara and she is soooo pretty and her personality is like CRAZY lol. We talk on the phone like everyday for hours and its crazy shes a different breed like im attracted to her physically and stuff but shes only 17! yikes lol. I dont think it would go any further lol but if anything a great friendship, plus im not trying to get back on the relationship scene for a while. But i definitely do not mind getting to know people. Because that can always be potential lol but for now im focusing on other things...and i am enjoying my summer that has been good so far i cant wait for my birthday to come now ! im going to be 20! yayyyyyyyy lol but thats the basics of it. =)