OK Bloggers =) SO the summer feels like its definitely coming to an end and it seems like it just got here!!! WTF..ughh well my summer really isnt going to end because im moving back to AZ yay lol i just wanna save up some DINERO so when i go out there ill be GOOD so probably a little after my bday i should be out there ..But anyway life is MOVING because time stops and waits for NO ONE=).And im learning that everyday when im looking at the clock and im like 'ALREADY' lol.Last sunday i got KOurtney and bryan and sha to come to church with me yay! lol i told hihs mommy that id take kourtney to church with me...and this sunday we are suppose to be going to jersey shore but idk cause of church or who knows i may not go IDK.But right now i am uploading pictures from my camera and there are a bunch of old pictures that have to be uploaded because i had lost my USB cord and i just found it yay ME !!!OK sooo yes i went to SUMMER STAGE last sunday and freaking JOE, Ginuine and Chico Debarge was there.and let me tell you GINUINE WOOOH hes an amazing performer lol and of course he had all the ladies with 'PONY' and JOE performed' all the things your man wont do' WOOOH I LOVEDDD IT.. but it was definitely HAWTTTT... But yeah ive been trying to avoid the SUN this summer lol i didnt wanna get 'BLACK AS HELL' lol but i think i caught a tan but watever im cool with it.its nothat serious. Last night i was on the phone with my SPIFFSTER lol till like 6 something AM.. and i didnt have work today so i slept until 2ish and my cuzzo wants to go to webstar hall tonight and im debating. IDK because shes leaving on SATURDAY back to DE so i def do want to see her...idk wat to do man lol Im def gonna miss her but i mean thats always gonna be my CUZZO like shes my ACE BOON KOON we have been through a bunch of things in such a short period of time and i have her back no matter what and she has mine =) I<3 color="#ffccff">BLACK who knows..i just want to keep EVOLVING as a young woman and take everyday as a lesson and crazy experiences i have no regrets but then i wish i could have done certain things slightly different..But i am who i am for a reason so i never really QUESTION anything because everything happens for a rason =) lol.For now im chilling and im so grateful for everthing.Im not putting a time on anything anymore, i want to be in a relationship but i know that im really not ready for one and especially since im about to make this move back across the country i know its not going to be with anyone over here. And Mona and i are still good friends and theres never been any bad feelings for eachother i mean i have her tatted on me and i never have any regrets about that and i still have crazy love her like she taught me so much on love and how to really be there for someone and i showed her many things as well.I honestly think shes one of the best things or person im going to meet in my LIFE.She has had such a MAJOR effect on my life undeniably. Uhm im just gonna touch on Johnathan lightly because that chapter is done. We have been arguing lately and a couple of days ago it went to a level that i should have never taken it to because of course its out of my character but sometimes when it came to him it was hard for me to ignore the little dumb and hurtful demeaning things he would do and say and i stooped to a level that i should have not. I said a lot of disguisting things, and i told him that i never loved him and i dont love him. I cant say that i never loved him because if i didnt i would not have not dealt with him for these past 6 years whether as a friend or girlfriend. and he said basically that i meant nothing to him in return and honestly he was probably being honest when he said that because i believe that he never loved me i was just there ya know. and i have accepted that im not hurting anymore im moving on with my life and leaving him where he is theres no need to keep in contact with him or anything because we dont get a long together and he will NEVER change. well hes not the man for me basically. He apologized to me when he was locked up , he apologized and he also wrote me a little long winded note on facebook. and i dont know if he apologized because he was incarcerated or if he really meant it , but it doesnt matter cause im not going to put much time into wondering about his feelings anymore ive been doing it for too LONG. But yeah theres someone out there for me and that PERSON will come when its that persons time.. for now everyone else is just PREPERATION for the real deal lol. And the whole thing with mona i cant tell the future or what it holds but im not saying there wont be another time for us in the future because the connection we had was so unexplainable like there is no comparison. Like that was a FAIRYTALE till the end and the ending has yet to be told. Regardless ill have endless love for her. Our book is still open ended. Whatever happens from this point on just happens im not expecting anything =) but i know im going to be super SUCCESSFUL lol. I went to go have my palms read! and she said im gonna have 3 kids and married between 24-27 and no DIVORCE yay lol and im goin to be real successful and a bunch of other things that im not going to get into.. Oh and she told me who im definitely not going to MARRY.
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